I thought all I felt like doing was uploading pictures today, then I wrote this:
I'm grateful for Alisa's posts about change in universe perspectives, house buying is an emotional roller coaster even if you are trying to not make an emotional purchase. That is emotional right there, trying to void all emotion. Anyway, from time to time I think something will play out in a certain direction it seems like that is what the heavens are pointing to, then all of a sudden everything switches, things switch back and forth all the time, sometimes we are clearly not getting one house, then weeks later its back on the table. Who knows, luckily I was driving the car yesterday, emotional clarity comes in the car for me, and I realized there is NOT just one right house. I do not have a house soul mate, just like no one has a just one soul mate. There are probably plenty of house that would be good for us to live in, that would be within our means, and would open doors for service and friendship, so we'll just have to wait and see which one works out. But it was nice to realize there is no one house soul mate, and my future house will not be perfect, just like spouses. It took a lot of pressure off. My dream house has a huge kitchen, four bedroom all the same floor, a cellar pantry, a big fenced in backyard with farm animals for my husband and children, that I never have to even think about, with a driveway and a two garage. Also in this dream my husband would be done with his MBA without missing anything, and oh yeah mortgage would only be around $600 a month, see I told you it was a dream. And now my son is kicking me off, he thinks its his turn on the computer.... He just told me "this laptop is yours and mines" I said "oh we share it?" he said yes.