Time

Today I got lost on the Time Magazine website, for quite some time. Like really a lot of time, I didn't do much that was useful today. I came across the Top 10 Sesame Street Moments, moment #5 was the Big Bird and the grown ups discussing Mr. Hooper passing away.

After watching the clip, I was glad I am a member of the church I am. It makes conversations about death a little less harsh. Instead of saying "never", I get to say one day we get to live with Heavenly Father and Jesus again. Mind you for a secular show, I thought the clip was well made, I'm just grateful my son and mine conversations are so abrupt. My son is a little obsessed with cemeteries right now, we frequently pass by two on errands, and truly believing in the Plan of Salvation makes those bi weekly conversations about cemeteries, and the purpose of them less harsh. I'm glad my husband and I were married in the temple, and my family is forever sealed to me.

Church

The other sunday my husband and I were getting ready for church. When our son came in like this:

We don't know if he wanted to have facial hair gone bad or if he had just seen too many people with Halloween make up. My husband and I found it hilarious. Not to mention he was popped collar cool.

But we didn't want to encourage marker on skin/face, so as my husband washed his face he asked him if it was fun to have his face scrubbed. He answer no, so he was told don't draw on your face again, so you don't have to have is scrubbed again.

Its beginning to look a lot like christmas...

If you are one of those people who hates Christmas talk before Thanksgiving, I apologize in advance. I am not, I am one of those people who starts planning Christmas in August, so I can plan my birthday presents in connection to my christmas presents. Don't get me wrong, I like Thanksgiving, and Thanksgiving decorations, I don't do Christmas deocrations before the day after Thanksgiving, but I like to be done with buying/making all christmas presents before thanksgiving.
That being said it turns out I'm the type of mom that waits until her kids are sleep, and then goes in the closet and pulls out all the toys for Christmas morning, and stares at them. And when I'm not staring at them, they obsess my every waking thought wondering if I bought the right toys

Plus the Fedex man delievered my first christmas present-- thanks Alisa. Although it might kill my son to stare at the gold gift wrap for two months.

Back to being the type of mom, that plays with the christmas present behind locked doors, I'm pretty sure, I got great gifts for christmas morning. But what I'm obsessing about is my daughter's brithday present. And what type of cake to make her. Its only 6 weeks?! How crazy is that?!

Cnady

My boy enjoyed his halloween candy too. My apartment complex wasn't very profitable, but thats ok, I didn't really want a lot of candy anyway. It was a lot of walking up and down stairs for not much candy.

Blank

I'm exhausted, I'm sick of study groups, I have no idea what to cook for dinner. I hit this same thing every night about this time. I keep thinking, if I wrote a wordy post, maybe I'd shape up. Except my mind is blank, there is absolutely nothing there to complain/write about. This is it.
I just want to sit on the couch and stare at the wall, and never have to feed my children again. My laundry is piling up, and the only time I care is when we get dressed and the clean underwear drawers are almost empty. Luckily I'm able to clean up a 10 month old's dinner mess twice a day. But that is about it.
Bagel pizza again? anyone?

Update (7:52 pm): My husband ditched studying to see his family. Much needed. I felt completely not depressed tonight. (This is completely unscientific and unresearched) I think my neutro transmitters don't work well without Brent around, I think my brain lacks dopamine while he is gone. Which only makes sense, since personal relationships, and love increase neutro transmitter activity, that is why we want to be in love, and have close meaningful relationships.

Candy Cat

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