Wednesday, April 29, 2015
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Because they had never experienced hard times, they did not know they could be happy. They had never felt turmoil, so they could not feel peace.
I do not declare that your life will cease to have challenges. Remember when Adam and Eve were in the garden, they were free from challenges, yet they were unable to experience happiness, joy, and peace.7 Challenges are an important part of mortality. Through daily, consistent scripture study, you will find peace in the turmoil around you and strength to resist temptations. You will develop strong faith in the grace of God and know that through the Atonement of Jesus Christ all will be made right according to God’s timing.
I am not suggesting that all of life’s struggles will disappear as you do these things. We came to mortal life precisely to grow from trials and testing. Challenges help us become more like our Father in Heaven, and the Atonement of Jesus Christ makes it possible to endure those challenges.10 I testify that as we actively come unto Him, we can endure every temptation, every heartache, every challenge we face, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
If the grim realities you are facing at this time seem dark and heavy and almost unbearable, remember that in the soul-wrenching darkness of Gethsemane and the incomprehensible torture and pain of Calvary, the Savior accomplished the Atonement, which resolves the most terrible burdens that can occur in this life. He did it for you, and He did it for me. He did it because He loves us and because He obeys and loves His Father. We will be rescued from death—even from the depths of the sea.
Monday, April 27, 2015
- Something reminded me of something I learned a few months ago. Without the experiences I had last year, I would never have known how strong I could be. I would rather have not know. Surviving postpartum depression, beyond strong. Surviving the hardest 10 days in my life-- Turbo on a nebulizer in and out of the doctor every other day. They knew me by name. *insert crying* Slipped disk problems at the exact same time, had pain every single minute of every day. Could not sleep the pain was so intense. Let's not forget my nursing infant, and my husband being in a third world country off the grid. Yeah, I survived that, I'm not sure would again.
- Brent and I were talking yesterday about something unrelated to marriage and I made an analogy to marriage. Made us both remember that we are blessed to both have parents that are rooting for our marriage. Not everyone has that. So grateful our parents aren't undermining us as a couple.
Sunday, April 26, 2015
For months I've been questioning why I had to go through postpartum depression. I'm not sure why I can't just accept it. But I'm not. Yesterday I had the opportunity to listen to Sheri Dew speak in person her message was questions are good. Referencing Enos it can cause us the wrestle with the spirit. While in the meeting, I thought I understood my trial. When I'm in a setting where I am feeling the spirit strong I start to understand, when I go back to the mundane life I don't. It's because when I was in the depths of depression I knew the spirit in a more intimate level than more normal life. My brain was too sick for any logical thought and so it was so easy to recognize the spirit. Moments when something said feed your children cereal. That was the Holy Ghost, taking care of my family. Because honestly there were times I was completely unable to. At the time I was confused where those thoughts where coming from because I KNEW they were not mine. Coming out on the other side, I could look back and recognize who it was. This is all going to take more of a wrestle, I need more understanding, and eventually the Lord will give it to me. It may take awhile and it will apparently be a lot of work.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
We have a long standing disagreement on whether he use to keep his hair longer (my opinion) or whether he just didn't cut it as often (his).
Once he cut his hair, I said, oh hey there is my husband.
Monday, April 20, 2015
In the somewhat beginning of his talk, Elder Bednar says,
“But Alma went forth and stood among them, and exhorted them that they should not be frightened, but … should remember the Lord their God and he would deliver them.Later on in the talk he says,
“Therefore they hushed their fears” (Mosiah 23:27–28).
Notice Alma did not hush the people’s fears. Rather, Alma counseled the believers to remember the Lord and the deliverance only He could bestow (see 2 Nephi 2:8). And knowledge of the Savior’s protecting watchcare enabled the people to hush their own fears.
Correct knowledge of and faith in the Lord empower us to hush our fears because Jesus Christ is the only source of enduring peace...
Different from but related to the fears we often experience is what the scriptures describe as “godly fear” (Hebrews 12:28) or “the fear of the Lord” (Job 28:28; Proverbs 16:6; Isaiah 11:2–3). Unlike worldly fear that creates alarm and anxiety, godly fear is a source of peace, assurance, and confidence.
The righteous fear I am attempting to describe encompasses a deep feeling of reverence, respect, and awe for the Lord Jesus Christ (see Psalm 33:8; 96:4), obedience to His commandments (see Deuteronomy 5:29; 8:6; 10:12; 13:4; Psalm 112:1)....
As the scriptures certify, godly fear “is the beginning of knowledge” (Proverbs 1:7), “the instruction of wisdom” (Proverbs 15:33), a “strong confidence” (Proverbs 14:26), and “a fountain of life” (Proverbs 14:27).
So maybe I need this healthy dose of fear so I do make sure I'll be set in life.
My beloved brothers and sisters, godly fear dispels mortal fears. It even subdues the haunting concern that we never can be good enough spiritually and never will measure up to the Lord’s requirements and expectations. In truth, we cannot be good enough or measure up relying solely upon our own capacity and performance. Our works and desires alone do not and cannot save us. “After all we can do” (2 Nephi 25:23), we are made whole only through the mercy and grace available through the Savior’s infinite and eternal atoning sacrifice (see Alma 34:10, 14). Certainly, “we believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the gospel” (Articles of Faith 1:3).I do agree with what he says, which is where the previous talk comes in, when "we are overcome by the “cares … of this life” ... we are paralyzed by fear of the future, which hinders our going forward in faith, trusting in God and His promises." My stain carpet may look awful but doesn't it really matter. Its as clean as 15 year old carpet can be, the stains are clean.. they are just stained sort of like a white shirt after laundry day following spaghetti night. (I'm a pretty lazy mom when it comes to bibs, if they pull them off, then the shirt gets stained.) This also goes back to the Alffluenza post I wrote a few months ago. (Posting that on my blog was so liberating for me.) Apparently all I needed to do was admit to 92 random people that I buy things to impress other people. Once I did that, I realized how stupid and immature that was. Now I go to the store and I honestly can't find things to buy because personally for my own-self, I do not want any of that stuff. (I have a serious weakness when it comes to buying photobooks.)
Now this might seem off topic but its the cares of this world that make me spend money wastefully. When I have my eyes set on MY goals I'm totally capable of saving for retirement. I have godly fear not worldly fear.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
"We are overcome by the “cares … of this life” when we are paralyzed by fear of the future, which hinders our going forward in faith, trusting in God and His promises."
Part of my problem with retirement is I feel like at a certain point in life my church service depends on how well I saved for retirement. This is not exactly true, but we'll leave my fears and personal issues aside for another day, because now we are getting too personal.
|That's a nephew with us.|
The real moral of this post is maybe I have adult adhd.
Friday, April 10, 2015
I loved the article after a conversation I recently had. I wasn't so thrilled with the conversation, I did not bring up the topic, and I won't go into detail, but the moral of the story the other person implied a lot of things about my four children that weren't exactly true.
So spoiler alert, I'm going to spoil that article and post the conclusion.
So I suggest we stop saying these things to the woman whose arms are full of children for the sake of the woman whose arms are not. Because the answer to “Don’t you know what causes that?” is not a what, but a Who. I don’t know why God gave me children effortlessly and withholds them from others who would make fantastic parents. But I know this: fertility is not a curse, it is a gift. It is a scandalous miracle.I will also state that the conversation was not, "don't you know how to stop this?" But the conversation did imply that my children were so easy for me, and how lucky I was for that.
Sometimes we wonder if nicknaming him Turbo as an infant was a grave error on our part.
We've known something was up for a while, the boy can be as happy as a clam one minute the next
Whenever I come across an article on children and sensory processing disorder I read it because sometimes they give helpful hints for my daughter. Like this one, holy smokes having her chew gum in church night and day difference. Game Changer. The other day I read one titled Creating Sensory Diets at Home. Finally I knew what was going on with Turbo.
Easily Overwhelmed (Sensory Defensive)Sensory defensiveness refers to a tendency to overreact to routine sensory (tactile, auditory, visual, movement) stimuli. We have two ways of responding to sensory input. The higher, more mature response is discrimination, which allows us to immediately interpret what the stimuli is and whether or not we need to respond to it. The more basic, survival-oriented response is a protective fight, flight, fright, or freeze reaction. Children with sensory defensiveness tend to be operating more in a survival mode, with stimuli being interpreted as threatening or annoying. Consult with an occupational therapist (OT) about implementing a deep pressure protocol program.Read more at http://special-ism.com/bonnie-hacker-reports-creating-sensory-diets-at-home/#hVrDm9j11RVr8Ig7.99All of a sudden I knew what he was doing, he spends half of his life in flight or fight reaction. Something doesn't go the way he planned. Someone touches a toy he thinks is his, he doesn't like the noise something is making, he gets unwanted attention, someone is singing a song he doesn't like, I turn on the radio, he didn't expect that youtube video, we start driving on the on ramp of the interstate, he is either complete jello screaming or running around screaming literally in circles. If you try to contain him then he is kick and screaming with all his might. Let me assure you after holding him for breathing treatments, diaper changes, and shots, if he doesn't want to be held it takes every ounce of my body to contain that child. I've never had such a strong child under stress. Actually I've spend time around a wide variety of children and I can only think of one child that was harder to contain that my Turbo, but this child was 4 not two.
The other day the front door was open because it was a nice day. He was standing up playing, and something fell from his hands, the next thing I knew he had run out the door screaming and was half way around the yard before I knew what was happening, by the time he had turned in his circle he was calm enough to come in the house and complain. (Calm enough to complain, not calm.) I feel bad for him his stress has to be through the roof, I don't want to think about his cortisol levels.
I've gotten pretty good at helping my daughter relate to the world through the way she responses to her sensory processing disorder but I honestly know nothing about sensory defensive I've never read about it because its not her. So now I have to research....
Like I said I found out about it completely on accident I was reading the article for my daughter. I kept looking into anxiety for kids but it was completely useless they were all written for children over 4, not for a two year.
Lastly, most days Turbo is fine, sometimes defensive but mostly a normal kid. Other days he is angry/defensive nonstop. I've found an essential oil blend that makes a huge difference. But by this point he is so defensive, I have to chase him down, hold him down as he is screaming to rub it on his chest. Once I get it on him he quickly calms down, but I have to brace myself before we use it. I get it from Butterfly Express, its called Sego Lily,
INGREDIENTS: copaiba balsam, grapefruit, rosewood, vanilla
AFFINITY FOR: skin, heart chakra, emotional health
EMOTIONAL / SPIRITUAL / MENTAL ASPECTS: The aromatic influence of LeSego Lily is, in part, to bring a feeling of calmness during a crisis or when feeling anxious and out of sorts. LeSego Lily also promotes a feeling of being loved and appreciated. Its aroma often inspires us to show love and appreciation to others.
PHYSICAL ASPECTS: Physically, LeSego Lily is a blend for skin care and health. It promotes skin elasticity and may seem to slow the process of aging as it nourishes the skin and smooths out wrinkles. LeSego Lily is used to bring relief from the itching of hives and allergic rashes. When used for this purpose, a more emollient carrier oil containing jojoba, apricot, or rosehip oil would be beneficial.
As a plus I use whatever is left on my hands after putting it on him and lightly rub it on my face to decrease any fine lines that have started to pop up in the last year. Totally works.
Friday, April 3, 2015
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
My kids very very rarely get to open boxes that come in the mail, most of the time its a present they can't see yet. Sometimes its just not for them. We order lots from Amazon and other companies that use UPS but my kids never get to open the boxes, so we started mommy mail. I find some candy in the cabinet and an old toy they have forgotten about then when they aren't paying attention I put it in an old box on the front porch, so then when its time to get the mail they find it. The two middle ones LOVE the game, we play it all the time now. The often ask its it time for mommy mail?