My favorite thing in the manual so far was a quote from Elder Faust,
The Lord has a great work for each of us to do. You may wonder
how this can be. You may feel that there is nothing special
or superior about you or your ability….
The Lord can do remarkable miracles with a person of ordinary
ability who is humble, faithful, and diligent in serving the Lord
and seeks to improve himself. This is because God is the
ultimate source of power.
It gives me courage with my sunbeams. I know at different months I have loved my job of teaching three year olds, but now I think it might be the end of me. It wears me like nothing else in life has. Every week I wonder if I can ever return. At this point I think maybe I can endure until the end of the year. Yesterday in a full on panic attack, I decided to count weeks, I only have 8 more lessons. I can survive. Hopefully... You may wonder what happened in the last few months? Two families moved in with three year old girls. Between those two girls, a deaf child, and five other three years old, I am becoming like an old crusty rubber band, ready to crack and break at any second.
(Actually I think all of them have turned four by now.)
But I guess the Lord has a great work for me to do, even though I have no great ability and I have no training as a behavioral specialist. The other thing I try to remember, is the great work might not be apparent to my mortal eyes.
Also in attempt for some deep spiritual mediation to prep myself for today.. I read Jean A Stevens talk from April 2011 Conference, titled Become as a Little Child.
This quote spoke to me.
“… we cannot see our Heavenly Father, but we can listen for His
voice to give us the strength we need to endure the challenges of life.
See if I listen for his voice, I can endure the next 8 weeks, especially if that is the plan the Lord has for me.